On the surface, you'd never know I have social anxiety. No one else can see the sheer terror I feel in the lead up to social events, the minutes before the Zoom switches on, the reasons behind my silence in meetings.
New year, but not a new me
I appreciate I've been a little... Inconsistent posting just lately. A few reasons lie behind that, mostly work and other stuff , time running away with me, and most chiefly, not really having motivation to write anything. So, we're now in 2021. None of that new year new me BS though. At least, not from … Continue reading New year, but not a new me
Not well, one year on.
Roll back to December 20th 2018. I was not in a good way. I've said before that Christmas time is usually not the best time of year for me with my seasonal affective disorder and all but it wasn't just that. My proverbial stress bucket had well and truly overflowed. So many stresses going in … Continue reading Not well, one year on.
No one ever died from talking about mental health, but too many have from feeling like they couldn't talk.
Changing of the season
Rather a grand title isn't it. True though. It's now the middle of November and we're tiptoeing into the wintery, dark months. Unfortunately for me, and a lot of other people, that means usually one thing. Season affective disorder comes knocking. Mine decided to finally officially join the table a couple of weeks ago, after … Continue reading Changing of the season
World Mental Health Day 2019 – Me
Well it's Thursday 10th October 2019. Another normal day you think. In fact it's a very important day - today is World Mental Health Day. A day to be aware of our own and others mental health. A day to show that mental health and mental illness are in fact different. Mental health is something … Continue reading World Mental Health Day 2019 – Me
Up and down
So being female sometimes really sucks. You're just strolling along the path of life, la di dah and BAM. INCOMING. Hormones. One minute you're okay then the next you're crying because you burned toast, then you're enraged because your jacket keeps falling off the hanger. So much fun eh? Monthly or in my case whenever … Continue reading Up and down
So it's been a while since I last posted. Remember in around November when I embarked on solo travel abroad for the first time, and it pretty much all ended in tears? Or rather an anxiety induced meltdown caused by a combination of getting used to new medication, being in a completely different country , … Continue reading Hannover
A letter to you…..
Ok so this is probably not what you would class as a normal blog post from me but I wanted to do something a little different this time, sort of like a letter (hence the title) to you, the person reading this, that I might have unknowingly upset or offended, that I didn't mean to … Continue reading A letter to you…..
On holiday with anxiety.
Isn't it nice to go on holiday with someone? Well it is if that someone isn't your own thoughts. I'm currently on holiday flying solo in Budapest and good old anxiety is squeezing it's hand on my shoulder. It's worse because I'm alone in another country that I don't know, a language that I don't … Continue reading On holiday with anxiety.