Honesty.

Welcome back, to those of you who read regularly and hi to new peeps! This post is a bit unusual for me in that it's a bit personal, and not unusual in that it's brutally honest. Looking over everything that's happened to me, that I've somehow survived, and yeah it does piss me off every …

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Changing of the season

Rather a grand title isn't it. True though. It's now the middle of November and we're tiptoeing into the wintery, dark months. Unfortunately for me, and a lot of other people, that means usually one thing. Season affective disorder comes knocking. Mine decided to finally officially join the table a couple of weeks ago, after …

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So this week I've attended my first wellbeing course session as referred by the Improving Access to Psychological Therapies service (IAPT) where I live. I made the sacrifice of an extra hour of sleep, at least for the next few weeks, so I can finish an hour early at work to make it to the …

I am.

Hey. Been a while since my last post. Not been too bad to be fair. Anxiety seems to be pretty much docile for the moment which is frankly fucking awesome. I do however as you well know, have another delightfully packaged condition known as PCOS. To put it nice n simple - it fucks up …

Calm.

So my last post about making progress. I've seemingly got a bit of a roll on. As I'm writing this bit of the post at 10pm ish on Tuesday 10th July, the past 5 days including today have been pretty much minimal or free of anxiety. Today has also potentially showed how far I've come …

Mask.

Today I was told that I must be really strong and brave to keep getting up and coming to work even when I'm having a horrendous anxiety day. Truth is, I don't feel either of those things most of the time. I feel exhausted in the battle, like I need to adjust my 'mask' each …

First up.

So... here goes. I'm not really sure how to start this, but equally I have always been someone that doesn't plan what I'm going to say on a blog like this, I just kind of, well, let it flow on to the screen from what's going on in my head. I suppose this was prompted …