Something for a Wednesday.

So I guess I've learned a lot about myself in 2020 more than anything else. I've kind of been on a journey of self discovery and become more self aware

World Mental Health Day 2019 – Me

Well it's Thursday 10th October 2019. Another normal day you think. In fact it's a very important day - today is World Mental Health Day. A day to be aware of our own and others mental health. A day to show that mental health and mental illness are in fact different. Mental health is something …

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Tears and tablets

So I'm here in the second week of tapering off my citalopram and next week I start sertraline. So far, frankly it's been hell on wheels. I feel an absolute fucking mess. My judgement is terrible, I can't sleep without medication at the moment, my moods are all over. I swing from okay to tears …

Cycles are….

Bit of an odd title I know. I've spoken previously about how my anxiety and depression tends to go in cycles. Well today was not a good day. A bad cycle which probably started on Friday. I didn't particularly see it coming until it had already enveloped me. I just felt like I was being …

Calm.

So my last post about making progress. I've seemingly got a bit of a roll on. As I'm writing this bit of the post at 10pm ish on Tuesday 10th July, the past 5 days including today have been pretty much minimal or free of anxiety. Today has also potentially showed how far I've come …

Contact.

So I feel like I've made some real progress not in terms of absolutely mountainous steps but apparently concrete progress. Over the last few days I've had situations triggering anxiety which would have normally put me 'out of action' so to speak for a full day causing a lack of focus in work and in …

Fear

Ok so maybe not always an anxiety thing but fear of failure is awful. I have a fear of failing - I set myself such high standards because I want to do everything either all at once or with no mistakes whatsoever. However my rational brain says, there's probably going to be an error somewhere, …